a xmas carol pt 10


i cant wait to see you again
you can tell me more about w
the other guests
i wish i could see photos
i am so curious!
it is so interesting to talk to you 
seeing myself through the eyes of others
i always just watch myself through the eyes of my dogs
they stare a lot
but you talk about them differently
of course i do
they are my dogs
while these people are old friends
and a life that feels very long ago
at least it makes me feel very old
you are not
i watch your face 
social security number
you have just inhabited 
a few years
of fears
and they got visitors
i can imagine your dinner table
round or square by the way
oval
surrounded by people
filled with plates
food
stuff
stuffed tummies 
leaning back rumbling 
surrounded by golden skies gardens fields  
the sound of music
i dont even know if my imagination correlate with your actual house
i mean life
how can i
be a therapist 
sometimes a little bit like reading a book
building imaginary worlds
based on detailed verbal descriptions
i choose 
to treat as metaphors
what do i know
six years of education
some months 
of your face in my office