but in norwegian we say air condition
i only write in english
as i live all by myself
my norwegian will sometimes come out broken
as it wasnt part of me
but something i had constructed for the sake of the moment
like an improvised show
make fun of myself
or making myself funny, entertaining.
i dont know
i have guests over for the weekend and sometimes it feels like such a long time i dont know where to place myself
i guess my english is a little broken as well
or private
like talking to a child
i am only talking to myself
you see
or to some people but that is like
shop small talk
and all groceries have english names these days anyway
you can at least place everything in the space
between english and norwegian and nobody will
care
belonging between the produced and sold
bought and consumed
exposed and possessed
it is this house
all these thoughts and sometimes these words
but most of the thoughts remain
rather thick in the air
thrown out the window like heavy water objects
rather than language
chairs and paintings and i dont know
shells and stones
they ended up here for a reason
just thinking
of my mind wandering
through hardware store
beyond beaches
picking with me things i didnt know
i need
but perhaps exactly
my need for company
so many rooms
ive stopped counting
and so many distances of wooden floors
i can run my breath out
by the lengths
thinking of all the trees
coming together
for these floors
my tables
i dont even know what kinds of wood maybe ive climbed you
before you were mine
the forest of my life
